Why the Delay

I get lazy in my praying. I fail to ask God for more of Him in my life; fail to ask that I would be more like Him and that more would be done in and through my life. When the answer doesn’t seem to come I get discouraged and stop praying in that manner. I forget that the Lord tests those whom He loves and that delays are really those tests. Part of His delay is to discern if what I am praying is really from the depth of my soul or a mere whim from my head. If I keep seeking the heart of God for a particular matter I have a better understanding as to what the outcome or answer might be. This seeking of the heart of God for a particular outcome, change or whatever the request is also reveals whether or not my prayer is sincere or shallow. I need to keep seeking Him, but not for the answer/s sake but for the new depth I will glean from the heart of God. The answers to our prayers are always secondary results. So there is a need for a larger capacity of the Lord in my life, a larger infilling of His Holy Spirit. Because the lord knows me completely, He knows how much I can handle. For example If He were to answer my requests for more of Him in my life and he fulfilled that request even if it was a deep and sincere yearning on my part; He knows that I would be like old wine skins that burst from the amount of new wine. The Lord gives in small portions according to the capacity of the individual and not all at once. His wisdom in these matters is far beyond my comprehension.

Lord in the midst of my learning curve, I ask for a larger capacity so that you may fill me up with your Holy Spirit. May my heart connect with yours as I live this life and may my prayers be pleasing to you. Thank you for letting me know that you know me better than I know myself and that you won’t take me any place that I am unable to go. I want to ask of you more, I want to seek your heart for matters of my heart to make sure that I gain you even if I miss the answer to my prayer.